I had set my mind to become the bridge between the two of you that very day you told me how much she meant to you

I still remember the affection in your eyes when you locked your eyes with hers

I still remember the smile on your face every time you spoke to me about her

I knew that those eyes of yours would never reflect the love you have for her on me

I knew that I would never be the reason for that wide smile across your cheeks

Love is not about possession

Love is unconditional

In the name of love, I decided to let you go

In the name of love, I mustered the courage to unite you with the one your heart beats for

Perhaps, I knew what it felt like to watch your love silently from afar

And perhaps I knew what it felt like to be a one-sided lover

After all, I have walked through that lane far too many times

From that day, you became the beneficiary of my benevolence

Every time I saw you with her, I died a little inside

Yet, I never let you know how I was shattering a little from time to time

I can’t deny that I still want you

Nor can I deny that she belongs with you

How was it my fault that I fell in love with you?

How was it my fault that I found solace from a glimpse of you?

All I wanted was to immerse myself in the arms of someone I could call home

But I never knew that it would end up breaking me just so much.

Samiha